It was just after 4am when sleep just up and left me. I arose and went into the front room to a sublime glow seeping through the large picture window. I went to the window first, then the door to go out. The morning air was unusually chilled. High above me, the the light source made herself known. THE FULL MOON CAST HER GLOW DOWN ON ME LIKE A BLANKET. I could actually feel her just as one would feel the heat of the sun on a warm summer day. I stood there staring as if waiting for her to speak to me. After all, she had called to me, right.
The previous days activities played out in my mind, immediately followed by an unfolding of messages so clear and precise. She was speaking to me. The lunar clarity was exhilarating. I went inside and sat down to transcribe the messages. As I sat down, a verse from the Gospel of Thomas came to mind.
“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”
Then I came upon this verse…
“When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know yourselves, then you will live in poverty, and you are the poverty.”
At that moment I wrote these words. Our intuition is powerful. It emanates from our true selves. It is the voice of “God.” Fear blocks the path, halts us and ignites doubt. Doubt is fed by all of our insecurities like dry tender feeds a fire. It is fanned and spread by overthinking (a form of procrastination, which is still fear by another name). Before we realize it we are consumed by doubt, our true voice/self is seared and we stand about blinded by the smoke of our indecision. At this point we must move, just move in any direction. Just move or we will remain in that space and the smoke/confusion will only grow even more blinding…and we remain. Making a decision and acting on it is God/Divinity in action. This is what came to me this early morning when I asked a question while standing on the porch gazing at that full moon glory, so powerful, magnificent, and divine. We must find the quiet moments to listen, be still, and know. Trust the process…
Notes of A Native Son 